STOKED. LIKE GOD IS AWESOME. COME TO NEWBREAK EAST COUNTY CAMPUS THIS EASTER.
I think I’m having an existential crisis. I just don’t feel good enough for anything or anyone. I feel like I’m constantly letting people down. I know feelings are stupid and misleading. I can’t seem to say out loud what I truly, truly want.
I want to perform. That’s my real passion.
Why are there no CLEAR opportunities for me to take?
God, I want to be a light in a dark place and I want that to be through music. Why does nothing work out? Why do I feel like a failure? Why can’t everything just get better? I want to feel happy again. I want to feel loved for real. I want to not have to keep second guessing my actions or words, or lack of those. I want to sing for You because You’re the audience that matters. But I need something to push me to do that. I need an door that’s wide wide wide open. Not one that’s cracked. Not one that’s unlocked yet closed. AN OPEN DOOR.